Shadow Fox (Nikii)

cause im to lazy to get all my entrys to be friends only... (the one just below this is most likely reall old lol) so yeah COMMENT! also i didnt make this banner i got it from someone in a community so yeah...

Damn im getting lucky or something cause last time my parents said if i got one more F i would be grouned from everything... im grounded from the phone (unless for school help) having people come over (unless to study) having anyone over and i only get about an hour online now so yeah... DAMN! i cant believe i got off yet again... my dad has yet to see it tho... crap... lol i got this...
Gov- D
Chem- F
AGAT- F
Band- A+ (lol SOMETHING GOOD!)
English- D-
Art- B

Lol so yeah... oops... lol thats all i have to say but yeah...

Sam most likly will be getting help now... thank god, i hope she feels better soon... so yeah and NO i was not the one who told tho...
Emily i hope gets better to... to both of u DONT WORRY BE HAPPY! lol

anyways other then side notes lol... sry im hyper for once and my jaw hurts my head hurts but I GOT CANDY lol... i wish i didnt have to go to school tomorrow... i hate school so much now... idk...
OKay im gonna go before i make myself depressed agian... or like act depressed (yes i still am, REMEMBER I HIDE HOW I FEEL)
BYEBYE
-Forgotten-
-Angel of Darkness-
-Spikes Fallen Angel-
-Fallen Vampire Angel-

last update for a while i kno this for a fact... im getting my report card in about 30 min.s so yeah i will be grouned within an hour so FUN not... i have a really bad headache right now and i dont think i should have went to school... i almost passed out... but whatever...
last night i cut... like always didnt leave much of a mark... i just told people it was sharpie so yeah. so yeah idk what else to say... i feel sick, depressed, lost, confused, cold and alone so yeah... i g2g bye bye
-Forgotten-
-Angel of darkness-

i feel bad now... most of my friends are depressed... and i feel almost selfish... idk y i just do u kno... im scared for tomorrow... i'll be grounded cause of my grades... and i feel bad about it cause i wish i could help my friends but how will i if im not aloud to talk to them u kno... idk anymore maybe i should just shut up... idk... i wish i could just thinking on the good side or stop thinking the way i am... today i went to ashton's i sat there for half the time writing... i wrote a letter... it scared me when i wrote it... i hate it when i wrote those damn things... the letter was mostly me saying goodbye... i do it every now and then... i just cant stop thinking... would the world be better without me... u kno i feel like everything i do hurts someone or another. idk what to do anymore... i almost got my mom to side with me to see a phyco doctor but idk anymore... i just wish all the pain i feel would just end... i've had it for years and it just keeps building... every night i get closer and closer to a breakdown its scary... and im scared that if i do breakdown for those who do care it will hurt them somehow... maybe to see me like that idk then i just think what if i take care of it all and end it myself and make sure i dont hurt anyone anymore... idk anymore i just hurt and now i feel selfish as hell... thats why i keep everything inside.... cause i feel selfish by it... like if i open up to anyone i put this on them and then its all about me then i feel like im selfish... i dont like helping either cause idk what to do u kno... like i get scared and when someone crys half the time i start u kno... idk what to do when someone needs me... idk how to help i just try to make a stupid crack about something to make them laugh but idk if it helps i just have a weird feeling they just want to kill me for being so fucking stupid....
To get down to it... i feel selfish for being depressed... idk what to do.. to stop fighting and have a breakdown... to stop fighting and end it myself (sucide in other words) or just stop fighting and see what happends... or just go on fighting until i fall that way... the more painful way? idk what to do anymore i just dont... i just feel traped and alone with no one to help me... idk what to do anymore... i try so hard to put on a happy face now... but i force myself to cause if i just let go and start crying... idk... i just fucking HATE myself why cant i be stronger... y cant i just have myself break down and hope someone helps... y do i have to be me... y do i have to be alive... what hurts is when i think about everyone and this is y i feel selfish 2... i think about everyone i promised i would try to stop cutting or thinking about it... and one person i forgot i promised... at band camp someone told me these exact words "Dont to anything stupid" (i think there was a please in there 2...) and i tryed as hard as i could i almost gave into it... but then someone else told me, before he knew to well enough, to promise not to... and i did... then 2 friends said u go i go... then i think it would be selfish if i went and did that to them... then about one year ago... the person who i care the most for made me promise and i forgot... one year ago ken told me to promise or to talk to him if i needed anyone and idk i just forgot... now i wish i could... but its kinda to late anything i say my parents read now... so idk... anymore

yesterday i went home early... im scared to say this but i dont want to go up to anyone and say this... i didnt know what to do yesterday... i was scared and freaking out and my friend had some pain pills... i almost oded yesterday... i passed out went i got home... im sry...

I didnt go to school today cause i was emotional... and my headaches went to doctor about it its cause of my braces and my jaw then i went to ashtons that kinda cheered me up... greg stole my whip and was chasing me outside with it lol. so yeah that was my day... tomorrow im scared about... this is the last update for a while unless they let me off a little and let me us the computer (HOPEING) so yeah bye bye for now... hopefully i can update again...
-Forgotten-
-Angel of Darkness-
~Fallen Vampire Angel~ (or now gregs angel??? lol)

I dont know what is wrong with me anymore. this might just be my last entry for awhile... i might have a few more but that will be it. thru. i'll be grounded so yeah. that should be fun. idk what to do anymore... today i come home early from school cause i was tired and about to pass out. so when i got home i took off my jewlery to try and sleep. i went to sleep about 11 and didnt wake until 4, then i stayed up for about 30mins. then went to my room to listen to music and then i fell asleep and my mom woke me for dinner. so in all since i got home from school i have been awake for about an hour and a half now. my head is spinning and when i stand i get really dizzy. Now i feels like my stomic wasnt to join in to so knowing me i'll end up getting really sick now. but i think me being depressed isnt helping but idk what to do anymore. i just hurt both ways, physicaly and metanly. i just want it to end but no one will let me and im about to just be like fuck it and go ahead and do it. the past few nights i've been like worse... im just waiting for one day i have a break down. im getting so close its not funny. Idk anymore. i know some people care but idk anymore, it just feels like im alone now. im cold and alone... idk anymore. i just want this to end... idk what to do anymore...
-Forgotten-
-Angel of Darkness-

something i got from sara that i like:
Now I lay me down to sleep I close my eyes begin to weep my soul will die before I wake this is suicide and no mistake

OKAY I AM USEING NAMES NOW! 1st i will say some of u dont apply to this cause u dont know me all to well... others u will kno u dont apply cause i will later say and everyone else... be pissed i dont care...
i really dont care what any of u think anymore but im sick of this, it MIGHT just be me or it could be true and its not just me being stupid like i do a lot. but yeah i might be going to see a physico doctor soon cause of my depression... granted i need to see one but i wont open up to one. and maybe i should... seeing the fact that half of you dont care... i kno some of u do... (raven, c, dell, and andrea-to the point) and i think some of u care but i kno u have your own thing to deal with right now (Sam)... but then u got some people who i feel like i get ignored half the time... no i take that back more then half the time... i've looked for help and asked for it before then i've turned around and asked the way i normaly do... other words i show i feel looking for someone to ask me whats wrong which doesnt happen a lot... rarely happeneds when i need it to... then there is someone (not useing a name u kno who u are) that its like when i ask them for help they try to make a move on me... I HATE THAT FOR ONE AND TWO I DO NOT WANT ANYTHING LIKE THAT FROM U. okay now that i got that off my chest... okay i kno i missed a lot but mostly all i wanna say is... truely tell me or let me know... do u care... if your name is somewhere in this or ur the person i left your name out... then i dont need to kno from u... but cause of the way i've been lately please... tell me... tell that i just pissed u off from here... tell me fucking anything cause it might just be me again being fucking stupid like i am a lot, dont try to say other wise i kno im fucking stupid. cause lately i wanna know... why the fuck am i still alive if im ignored so much... i kno what i mean to some of u but idk anymore...
-Forgotten-
-Nobody-
-Angel of Darkness-
my life is to stand alone forever... i stand here, come out to help, u never know im there then i dissapear into the darkness... cause u never care....

do u ever wish u had a shoulder to cry on, or someone to hold forever and say i love u to....
Some of you have had one of those 2 or both SOMETIME in your life... weither or not u have it right now. most of u have had one of them if not both. i've never had either now that i think about it...
i kno i've sometimes had people there... "im here when u need to talk"
but the thing i hate is going to them... with my problems. i feel like im putting my problem on their shoulders now... i hate it... i've opened up before... when they ask me what was wrong and talk about it frist... i can never go to someone and be like i need to talk to u... yeah i might be able to go to someone and say i need help but that is rare. cause im scared of being hurt for another time. and right now... one more time could be the last...
i was talking to someone and i relized a lot... MOST of my friends, so anyone who doesnt kno my 3(this one, my writing one and one i write what is really deep down.) this is u. they are there for fun, but not for help, unless im missing so much. just like the person i was talk to is... we both have the same weird habbit... we want everyone to be happy before we can be... we live to make others happy really. like me. i never think about myself anymore, its like no one will let me. i start to and start to want to make me happy then it all burns right in front of me. i hate it...
I wish i could change but idk how... some of u wonder why i never talk about y im depressed. i dont go looking for help. i was thought not to... i'd cry and the worse it got for me... i grew up knowing pain and to hid what i felt and be who everyone wanted me to be or act happy when they wanted u kno.
idk what to do anymore... idk who to turn to or like ask for help... idk how to ask for help... idk maybe im to just keep writing here and maybe a miracle will happen and i'll have one of the 2 things at the top...
-Forgotten-
~Angel of Darkness-

all i've done so far was, school, gregs b-day party (which was fun), and Festival was today. school is boring has ever, had fun in english friday, greg's b-day party was fun... sara did everyones make-up which didnt last to long. lol played spin the bottle, 1st outside(wind and all) then inside, then presents then more spin the bottle lol. then it was mostly just dancing and eating cake and pizza, then just talking lol. it was fun. Festival on the other hand TODAY i THOUGHT we did good but we got straight 3's.... HOW THE FUCK DID WE GET STRAIGHT 3'S! that pisses me off lol. well yeah i think im done updating. im just babbling.
~Angel Of Darkness-

so yeah my day was... so-so... 1st hr check homework/quiz... then 2nd test, 3rd review, 4th got dresses and me and dana had some fun, 5th WAS FUN we did more of the thing we have to act out and its fucking funny now and we heard the choir singing a thing of disney songs and me and jeramy were singing to them to... art almost done with my drawing...
so yeah, last night idk what happened... like i do every night i just layed away thinking... u kno... well i went to think about y i would be depressed u kno... and then i ended up thinking about the list of people i liked that i wrote and the staring of just thoughts about them u kno. i just needed to write and thats what i wrote about earlier in the day yeserday, but that night idk, i just started thinking... then crying for some reason or another idk y i started. i think i kno but idk u kno. so yeah that started about 11:15ish then idk i started thinking more and more and i cryed more i stoped at about midnight a little after so an hour i thought.... i kno people will be mad or something close by me saying this but this is what i thought last night and i feel now that i think about it...
this is one of my hardest times, idk y but it is, stress of things close to happing, my brother gone, a few others u kno... and im slowly getting more and more depressed and hiding more and more of how i feel, and i stoped fully trusting people a while ago cause of it and now im like getting more and more distance for how i really feel.
what i need most is help... from friends most likly, but i cant get it. some of you, r not to blame others im not to sure so this is how i will say it... i have friends that i talk to outside of school but not a lot... then i have friends that im like always knowing what they do and hanging out with like ALMOST 24/7 u kno. well i think about it... i kno the ones that i dont talk to that much outside of school care u kno but when is it time for me to talk to them in person or anything and i wish and im trying to change that... but... the others i wonder if more the half of them see me... but idk... im most likly being stupid... i just wonder what i really mean to most people... i understand about a few,(raven, delli, c, ashton) but the others idk... im just being stupid like i said.. thats y i wanted people to answer the questions in last update... but idk... idk a lot of things anymore...
-Angel of Darkness-
PS:2new poems on my other accout (Vampfallenangel) or soon depends on if and/or when u read this

Yeah 9ish or close to until i stop updating for a while lol... i'll be grounded so yeah... before i go i need some stuff answered by commenting, emailing me or AIM PLEASE lol. they will be at the end so yeah... MY DAY! marks and all LOL yes i have marks from this day.... bit marks... TY GREG lol.

okay frist hour we read the next section about congress FUN i think im not going to law anymore... lol idk i was thinking the hole hour about what if i was to go into law then want to be in congress.... i wouldnt mind but its to much work lol. i have a project which i have to finish later due tomorrow FUN!
2nd hr... i ate lol im always eating in chem or agat its funny... matt (bunjac) read my short story and yeah he wants me to write happier.... NO lol um... and i think thats it... hw
agat... QUIZ failed enough said lol FAILED the last and quiz by the way... but the class grade is higher then my chem grade... my chem grade... WHICH IDK HOW I PULLED OFF lol.. was 18% this grade was like 49%... I DID MORE WORK IN CHEM! lol
band... normal lol fun... interseting lol... that about it
english-we wrote out a play thingy from a story... fun fun...
art-Some weird movie idk... 2 people read my story... one almost cryed lol the other like it...
So then after school i went up to oakwood with sam, ashton, and greg... had some fun... got some looks tryed not to ask bunjac and randy for something i will not say here lol. then went to ashtons helped with some work, greg came over... went on the computer... they wont stop bitting me... have MARKS lol i showed my mom and she was like... we need to take greg for some rabie shot lol it was great... then again she thinks everytime i hang out with greg i do stuff i will not say here... GOD! that pisses me off... IM NOT FUCKING EVERY GUY I MEET COME ON! not yet anyways LOL JK... um... then i got home at 6... i walked in... i think my mom was PISSED but oh well she got over it lol... showed her the bit she said the rabies thingy... THEN THE GOOD PART OF MY DAY... she was like... got a letter from ken... its on the table... so i walk over.. me thinking its the same as always to the family... IT WAS TO ME! it had MY name on it i was like SCORE... idk that letter made me think a lot like he told me about how i should try harder at school and dont be like him and bobby(irwin) cause bobby droped out mostly and fucked up everything, and ken started caring to late and is where he is, which is hell, cause of it so yeah idk i think i read between the lines with one part.. i might be wrong but i think he said dont be like him and bobby, and then he said that i should try to make my parents proud but idk if that is what he meant u kno... and this i will remember like all the time now...
'Do the best you can with what u have, when u have it. that will get you through life'
wise words from ken... DONT GET USE TO IT lol jk... u gonna love my brother lol... but yeah i think thats it for my day WOW i did a lot LOL... bye bye now
-Angel of Darkness-

Questions:
Frist off a simple one... what do u think i should do or look better... im redieing my hair red... then im gonna tip it OR highlight it BLOND... what one should i do... tip it blond or Highlight it blond... i like tiping better but idk lol so yeah and its only $25 when highlighing it more so yeah...

Second and LAST thing PLEASE SOMEHOW ANSWER THIS... im going though something and i need to kno u kno... just a few questions of what u think of me... if u cant put them in words then just say it and tell if its a good thing or bad thing u kno lol...
~what do u really thing about me... be TRUTHFUL!
~Am i one of those people u would remember in a few years? lol
~When did we frist meet??
~What do i mean to u?
How well do u kno me? (u dont have to answer any or all of these just the frist few PLEASE!)
~Frist off HOW long have u known me?
~What color eyes do i have?

PLEASE AND TY FOR ANSWERING THESE IF U DO! u can comment with answer or email them to me
Pirate_for_life_13156@yahoo.com
if u need it lol.
~my FULL name, Middle name 2...

Well not much has happened... im still depressed but oh well... um... idk what else has happened... i finished my short story called Bloody waterfall... idk if i said that here yet... if u wanna read it just tell me and i'll let u. um... didnt do anything over the weekend... this is my last weekend of going anywhere for a while... cause of my grades which are, D, E, E, A, C, A/B/C (idk what it will be.) so yeah... oops... um... but umm i think thats about it... umm... GR there is something i was gonna say but i dont remember... i went to ashtons today... it was... interseting to say the least lol... i have a ponding headache right now... i hate these headaches... they just keep coming back... idk maybe its stress again. but idk. so yeah i think im done updating...
-Angel Of Darkness-

I was thinking a lot today... maybe thats y im so dizzy and have a headache... but um... yeah i started thinking about my past... what i was like what i wanted to be like and what i am now... so if u dont wanna read then dont but idk i need to get this down...
When I was little i guess u would say i was like a happy calm little girl... one of the nices people yet i wanted to be... not good lol. i wanted to be a juvinal deliquent... idk y but i did. and this was way back when i was like 4ish... when u didnt know any better and thought u would get older and marry your brother... YES I THOUGHT THAT WHEN I WAS LITTLE OKAY. lol. but yeah ever sence i can remember my brothers (Irwin and Ken) would fight at lot but also get along a lot u know. they would start yelling then start really fighting... punching kicking the hole thing... i kno what ur thinking, not a big deal right. well i love(d) my brothers a lot, they were family that i saw cared u know. i never saw my parents there for me so yeah. but everytime we left them home alone i was scared that i would come home and find one dead... they yelled so much... maybe that is why when someone yells i like cower in fear... then again... nvm i wont say that part... like the worst thing to do at me (unless i kno its not at me) is to yell... u know... so yeah after i hit school thats when i changed a lot... i wasnt all the happy inside anymore. my brothers got in troble a lot... fought a lot. u kno... but what is weird is, i was like the biggest PREP in school... but this is weird 2... i had all my prepy friends... then i had another me... which i had all guy friends... like 2 me's lol. it was 5 grade when i got sick minded... TY EDDIE lol. even then i was a prep but i wanted... this went through 6 grade to... i wanted to be gothic or what i thought to be gothic... to were all black... i wanted the baggest cloths i could find as well... HOW THE HELL I AS A PREP DONT ASK ME lol. so yeah idk i had my share of friends... but idk... it was like i was still alone u kno. then after a while, irwin left... i got depressed for like the FRIST time in my life... i was introduced to the world of pain and cutting.... not fun lol. i mean i just think about how much i have changed idk y i am thinking about this but i am... its funny how i wanted to gothic.... but i dont know what that really was... now look i am what i wanted to be... lol... then when i was little i wanted to be a J.D. and for those who know about my past LOOK! lol.
what i wonder the most is what made me change so much... what really made me go from a sweet, never getting introble, nice little girly girl to this.... u kno... i like who i am but to the point... i hate how i block myself off from the world, how i dont open and keep everything inside.... i HATE it... so fucking much...
I started thinking about what i finally gave into last night with my emotions (if u wanna know ask if i think i can tell u i will but u will find out sooner or later anyways) idk if i should open up about it... i want to but idk if i can... u kno... thats what i hate the most... i HIDE away from everything and everyone... i wish i didnt have to... i fear so much that is so stupid... like getting yelled at... i kno most of u are like, well thats understandable but half of u havent seen how i get when i get yelled at... i almost cry... another thing crying... its like i cant do that around people anymore... i cant show anything that is my real emotion or a weakness in my eyes for some reason or another. I just hate is so much... idk what to do anymore....

I kno most of u wont say anything if u read it to start with... or im just babbling about myself like i do a lot. but i dont care... i just need to get a lot out and dont know how... im not looking for help... i already asked for that and only ashton replyed... so yeah im done looking for help when i know im not gonna get it half the time... so right now idk... im just thinking about so much and im like depressed and dont know why... maybe its ken not being here for... how long now??? idk... maybe its just be being stupid idk... i really dont anymore...
-Angel of Darkness...-

Which Final Fantasy (IV-X) Character are you?


by steevi

Well today lets see... i woke up at 8... layed in bed until 9 when i had to come out to wacht the dogs as my mom slept and my dad went to work... went online the hole time. i finished and typed out my new short story called bloody waterfall. if u wanna read just ask me and i'll email it to u.... and that is about it... watched edward sciossorhand (SPELLING? lol) or atleast the last hour of it lol. and now im bored. i dont have anything to do today so yeah. wanna do something CALL ME PLEASE lol. well i'm gonna go bye bye

well i didnt go to school today... i was feeling worse this morning... every morning i feel like im dieing but night i feel better idk y but i do... i had a few.... WEIRD dreams then came online and talked to ashton for about and hour or so... oh and ashton IM NOT IT CANT BE TRUE EVERYTHING LIES!!!!!!!!!!!! sry i had to say that... then.... stayed online just writing.... trying to think... then my dad left for work, i woke my mom up and asked if i could go to ashtons to help with her hw she just got... she said yes! I was like SHOCKED! so yeah i just got back i did simple math for her... WHICH I WANTED TO DO CAUSE I FUCKING MISS IT lol. then we just talked i did a few thing.... THE TEST AND THE CARDS AND EVERYTHING ELSE LIES!! anyways im bored idk what to do... i dont think i'll be doing anything this weekend... but yeah bye bye now...
-Angel of Darkness-

Well today sucked just a WEE! lol... yesterday the concert went good, ANDREA AND SARA I WOULD HAVE DONE WHAT I PLANED IF I WASNT SICK lol im not lieing... i dont wanna get anyone sick lol. so yeah, umm. that is about it for yesterday.... i think lol yeah i think it is... so yeah ON WORDS!
Today this is what i did at school...
Government-test
Chem-went over hw
AGAT-did work I DONT NOT UNDERSTAND THIS STUFF lol HELP!!!!!!
Band-played LOL DUR!
English-got in groups and wrote about a picture from the book.
Art-worked on projects. I MADE MORE POKEMON! SCORE!
after school i didnt stay after... i walked home but um...yeah i walked home then took my puppy to the vets for a few more shots u kno, then went to andrea's THAT WAS FUCKING FUN lol. went to eat then here i am... sick as hell lol. confused 2 lol but yeah that was cause of the thing i wrote about last entry idk what to do about but yeah i wrote a new poem my name here to read it is VAMPFALLENANGEL seach for that name lol. GO THERE TO READ MY SONGS/POEMS/OR QUIZ'S i took lol. so yeah mostly its songs so far but i'll add my new poem sometime today lol my dad told me he's giving me money later like 2 weeks later and all i will say is PANTS! lol im getting more pants then im tiping my hair blond. SCORE! um... what else OH yeah for those who care, yeah im sick as hell... and i dont think im getting better lol ive been getting really bad headaches AGAIN. GOD i hate when this happeneds and it was only a few months ago lol. i would like pass out and NOT kno where i was... but yeah i can bearly think straight half the time so yeah. idk i told my mom i felt like i was getting worse but i wont be going to the doctors anytime soon. so yeah idk what i should do... i really dont wanna go to school tomorrow cause im sick but if i dont then i cant go anywhere if i want to and I ONLY HAVE 2 WEEKS PEOPLE! then im grounded LOL amazing how i know that... ITS CALLED GRADES lmao... maybe i should do hw... or pay attention in class lol might help lol this is what i know for grades.... government-e....chem-e.... agat-e.... band-a LOL SCORE! *rolls eyes* english-BishA lol art-BishA lol so yeah GO ME... my frist 2 classes are easy but im lazy and see nothing for me in the future so im not doing work... agat got lazy but now i dont understand so yeah... not good then all my others i never get homework and when i do i dont do it so yeah... anyways i think im done for today lol bye bye
-Angel of Darkness-

Okay frist off this was my day... government, did work work and more work, chem took notes i wrote a song, agat i slept cause i was sick and still am, band played through the music for tomorrow... GOD I PLAYED LIKE SHIT TODAY! then english we did some work which i just talked all hour and art started my candle idea.

So yeah that was mostly my day... i woke up sick as hell... idk y but i did. so i was half out of it all day. it was nuts... i hate being sick.
well after school i went to andrea's for a few hours. we walked to mitchells house and kevin was over. so yeah it was me, andrea, kevin, and mitchell. it was fun, me and kevin raced andrea and mitchell and won... be4 that andrea told kevin to hold my hand (For reason later learned) so yeah we did that... and all i will say is kevin is FUCKING HOT! lol. anyways. so yeah ANDREA WE SHOULD DO THAT AGAIN... hehe speacially with the handcluffs LOL.

well yeah Here is were i want people to comment back about... idk what i should do... I like someone A LOT! lets just say that. they know i like them but only to an extent u kno. well, some people i talked to say i should tell him but idk. cause someone told me that he liked or likes me but idk if i cant trust that person... then another said friends that was it from what she knew... SO YEAH! idk what to do cause im chicken shit to say anything... so yeah. idk what to do or WHY THE FUCK i have to feel like this but hey. idk PLEASE COMMENT !

Fucking A! y is it everytime i think something may happen good in my life doesnt... it burns in flames right in front of me cause i fucked it up in the frist place.... GAH I HATE THIS SO FUCKING MUCH!

i just posted again... just in case i dont after this.... just wanted to say bye... there is nothing more to say or do...
nothing really left unsaid...
nothing more to say
im just a stupid weak little girl... with stupid weak little problems that i cant handle... im just a stupid little girl with emotions that mean nothing anymore...

So yeah today was mostly boring... band staff what interseting... even tho we all got yelled at... it pisses me off so much cause he tells us he doesnt need us or anything so go home... or like will tell us there is nothing to do so we all dissapear into practice rooms... and then he bitchs in class about how the band staff doesnt do anything or we get him introble.... GAH. lol. so other then that this is my day:
Gov.-quiz, checked hw, read next section, borning.
Chem.- notes... mostly... i dont remember cause i was writing a short story its called bloody waterfall.... its about how a girl kills herself its great lol. im so happy NOT! lol
AGAT- quiz enough said
Band- played through our music for the concert.
LUNCH- NO ONE WAS THERE SO I WAS STUCK WITH TOM... and he only stayed untill near the end, sam and dana stoped by for a sec, then bryan came by and sat with us... fun fun...
English- we went to the computer lab to find stuff about the way blacks were treated back when to now WTF i thought this was english not history lol.
Art- I GOT AN IDEA score im doing an impossable drawing of candle after candle... sang again hehe.

SO yeah there is my day... boring... i got though one day without people seeing anything that i will not say... um... idk i mostly was happy today from what i let people see so yeah. idk if i should hide my emotions like i am... or atleast some of them... but idk... i mean i shouldnt hide the fact im not as happy as i seem but hey. idk... g2g dont kno y i do but i do... GOT TO GO BE BORED OUT OF MY MIND SOME MORE... bye
-just someone.-

PS: SCORE!!! i look up him...lol

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because you never write or call since you spend
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well... the dance was... interseting to say the least.... lol lets see... there was tables like all over and then u had the part for dancing... well by the table me and greg sat at there was a tree thingy with ballons everwhere... then on every table there was ballons... helium ones... yeah... so at the table there was me, greg, emily, laurn, um 2 people i cant remember names lol... jessica b. and her friend april. but yeah there was stars on all the tables to... lets not go there... lol. so a little into the dance we started messing up the table to be different i guess. lol. then we got hold of the ballons... hehe i think i killed to many brain cells yesterday. lol there was only 3 so yeah after that was done i ran over to christies, karens, sarahs, table and stole there ballons with no one there... we inhaled those.... then greg wanted on of the star ballons to the tree.... he ended up getting one then slowly we stole ballon after ballon off the tree... NOT ONLY US.... it was nuts... the tree feel over a few times lol. then after we would pop or inhale the ballons we would snap them at people or ourselves.... so yeah... then emily and greg tryed to teach me how to dance... KEY WORD TRY. lol yeah im to white... so yeah... i think i got all the points down that i wanted... lol. OH i remember now i was blackmailed by jessica and april cause i let something slip to them about what they said... if u DIDNT go to the dance and want to kno just ask... but yeah i didnt want to many people or just one person knowing it so yeah they 'blackmailed' me lol. so yeah im done updateing....